Suicide

Esther tries to commit suicide by overdosing on sleeping pills, but instead of dying, is rushed to the nearest hospital for medical care. Esther seems to crazy because throughout points in the book, and from events preceding the book, have created a massive buildup of self-esteem problems, depression, and confusion. Esther, basically is just one whacked out person. She is overwhelmed with society and her life, and is struggling to fit in, but just can't. She tries so hard, but in the end, she realizes that's not who she wants to be, and this makes her sad. She wants to want to fit in and be within society, but that's not who she is, and she cannot want it. From the drunk night with Doreen to the rape attempt by Marco to her inability to be accepted to that writing class, Esther's problems really added up. She was no longer sane in the end, and she could no longer live with all of these problems. On top of all of these problems, she was already messed up from the start. She grew up with no father and a mother who struggled to find a steady income. Esther, also in general is just not a very happy person, she never has been, and when you put all of these other problems with this, it is not a very good mix, but rather is causes craziness, and this is exactly what happens to her. She is crazy because her life has made her this way.